In my eight year journey thus far as a mommy and even more so as I have continued on as a mommy of two babies I have experienced numerous new things and changes. I have learned and grown more than I ever could have dreamed of. I have been doubly stretched and made more flexible to the point at times of being outside of my own comfort level or zones. I have had my double shot of the overjoyed and the oh boys moments in motherhood. I’ve been in my mommy valleys and on my mommy mountaintops. I have been witnessed to my very own evolutionary process as a mommy from being extremely virginal to becoming and evolving into feeling strong, steady and confident in my own expert voice and ability as the mommy of my babies and for my family. In and through motherhood I have gained the most challenging and difficult at times, yet the most fulfilling, rewarding and best job ever that I could hope to have. Also in my becoming a mommy of two babies I have had my ultimate dream come true and realized that this journey that I was embarking upon would be and will continue to be the ultimate journey of a lifetime.
In embarking on and journeying through my second verse of motherhood I have grown experienced, learned many numerous new ways and lessons while in other ways it has provided a good reminders, refreshers and reinforced the value of the lessons learned in my first verse of my motherhood. I can say with certainty I was rapidly right of the bat of entering my second verse of motherhood I was reminded of how desperately I wished I had an instructional manual with much needed advice, insight, wisdom and council. Equally I was reminded how truly thankful for my own glasses and pitchers of my own lemonade and for my, now double daily douses of small and simple graces to get me though my life in my days as a mommy of two precious babies. I have also come see and understand how often I say the darkest things to my babies but I know of what I wish to teach them through those mommiess.
The new lessons that have come in my second verse of my motherhood is a closer look at my roles as mama and how my roles have changed since becoming a mama of two babies and as I continue on my journey as a mama. I have reflected upon balancing my roles of Martha, Cinderella, Mary and desperately wishing to be Samantha or at least have. her neat little trick. I have pondered even more the great importantance, more than ever, of time with my girl friends, my mommy time outs and just making sure of getting my sips, breaths, breaks and my ‘I feel pretty’ self care. Being a mommy of two is much the same in the second verse as in the first verse and its often just a double dose and expanded from what it was when I was just a a mommy of one baby. Which for me just testifies to the more greater need for my mommy time outs, time with girl friends, and my self care. I know that what I truly want more than anything and more than ever now is to be and do my very best for my babies and family is possible with these new lessons of motherhood and of life I have learned and acquired in my journey as a mommy.
In considering all that I have seen, done, learned and experienced as a mommy and my journey through this second verse of motherhood has shown me these things to be true. First of all my motherhood matters much and I am now first, foremost and forever mama. As a mommy I wish to always, always treasure cherish these beyond measure priceless and precious most special necklace of rare jewels that will always be around my neck in my heart my babies and their sweet arms wrapped around me. May I always put my babies and family first and ensure that my babies know that they are more than just a minute to and are worth all the my seconds, minutes, hours and days in my life and world and then some to me. I must be able to find and keep the balance through my mommy tools for myself, my babies and my family. I must always strive to do and be my very and utmost best for her and my family. In doing these things and always, always through loving my babies and my family no matter what journeying together hand and hand I know I will, although not perfectly or without struggle, difficulty, due diligence or hard work, succeed in my journey through motherhood. I know I will be able to build and give myself, my babies and my family the house of cards of motherhood that I want build upon a foundation of strength, confidence, independence, courage, kindness, respect, beauty and love. May I always dare to find my own way and travel my own journey as a mommy. May I always dare to give and be the very best mommy for my sweet precious babies and family. May we as mommies continue to journey on through motherhood learning, growing, evolving and taking our breaths, sips and going in strength, courage and confidence for our children and families.